A Hat full of Sky

Why do you go away? So that you can come back. So that you can see the place you came from with new eyes and extra colours. And the people there see you differently, too. Coming back to where you started is not the same as never leaving.

Joy is to fun what the deep sea is to a puddle. It's a feeling inside that can hardly be contained. It came out as laughter.

'I've come back!' she announced, to the hills. 'Better than I went!'

The only hat worth wearing was the one you made for yourself, not one you bought, not one you were given. Your own hat, for your own head. Your own future, not someone else's.

- Excerpt from 'A Hat full of Sky' by Terry Pratchett

Read this last Friday night after a tiny glass of red wine (at a casino party which I didn't stay very long at), warm under my quilt in bed just before drifting off into dreamland.

Those were some comforting words, especially after Thursday's incident. I hope when I return home, I could say, proudly, as the protagonist above; 'I've come back better than I went.' I would try as hard as I can to find out what I could possibly be good for in the time I have here. And it helped to have encouraging friends, thanks! I feel better. And last Saturday was a therapeutic one. A good breakfast with some girls from a student christian group, haircare tips from a hairdresser at the breakfast, receiving a 2nd-hand bicycle (from a classmate who found it abandoned), baking (black forest cake! :D) and learning German with a church friend... Little blessings that I am thankful for, that make the pressure of school and boring routines of work bearable.