Happy (very) belated birthday (to me)

Another year older, but not much wiser I guess... haha.

I'd wanted to write this a long time ago, but as usual, the beginning scraps of it has been sitting in my drafts.

It's autumn again. Sometimes, it feels like the past year barely happened. It's been a rather stressful year spent back in school (after such a long break of working). Maybe my brain's too rusted to study anymore... But at least I made it through. Now it's just another 6 months of slogging along in the lab, which is much better than being stuck with memorising and more memorising.

As much as I often think about home and miss it, there're all the good of being away too. The nice people I've got the luck to know, all the things (German, cooking skills, kknowledge etc) I've learnt in this time. Invaluable. I think I change (I hope for the better) every time I leave home for a somewhat extended length of time (this would be the third, and in so far, the longest). I don't really know what my next step would be after this, and the thought that all's as yet unknown is in itself rather... unpleasant and at my age, sometimes, a little pitiful, I think. I feel like I have nothing to show for being at a ripe old age that I am. No required papers to make it in life. A close friend of mine said to me not too long ago that his wonderful wife is expecting their second daughter! So exciting! I understand that one pays the price too for having a family. It just makes me think; he and his wife, both my age, are at such a different stage of life as I am, one which I wonder if I'll ever get to.

Well, I am making this post sound like a rather melancholic one. Let's talk about happier things. I got a surprise visit from my best friend in Singapore for my birthday. It's been good to spend the time together this time, it was just like in Singapore. She left yesterday afternoon for home and the evenings start to feel really lonely. I guess I'll get used to being alone again. The worst part about getting visitors from home is that you get used to (and happy with) their presence and when they leave, it's like they took a part of you with them, leaving a void. Aiyah, I manage to sound so sad again. Guess it's because I am feeling a bit low. But it'll be better. In Dec, I get my dear visitor back. :) And another close friend is coming back for Xmas. I just have to hold out till then. ^_^

Oh ya, in this time, I've also moved. And I am happy to say I really like my new room. It's bigger, cheaper and comes along with much nicer housemates.

Ah, geehz, it's late, I should get ready for bed. Gute Nacht, Leute.