Hats off to you

who possess the courage to break ranks and be different, to pursue what you like, even if it meant not having a stable job/income.

I should have taken a leaf from their books. I suppose procastination and laziness are not good enough excuses for feeling miserable with myself and not doing much about it. (Oh I can just about hear myself pipe out, 'Well, it's not really within my control now is it...?')

Looking through a friend's latest blog entries almost made me shrivel up in shame and feel tons of admiration for how he goes after what he wants in life. Once he's decided on something he wants to do (it's usually something not very usual - unusual according to that set path we've been taught to follow, like giving up an iron rice bowl to go to Argentina to learn tango and now to pursue a degree there), he goes all out for it. (No matter how troublesome or the procedures can be, simply because it's not something that's usually done.) How mentally focused!

I want that kind of fevency, the zeal. Not just sit around, moan and wait for something (anything!) to drop from the sky (which is basically what I am doing now). I think I'll start now, today. I don't know how long this burst will last. I hope at least until a change occurs somewhere in this wretched routine of mine.

2 other friends I've become quite close to lately have also inadvertently become people I look up to. Both of them gave up jobs as well-paid engineers some years ago for their passions. One's now a self-taught, part-time photojournalist and the other's a full-time dragonboat coach (my coach, in fact).

A toast to my 3 very-real role models! May I someday be able to tell myself with pride (whether I succeed or fail) that I'd tried my best.