Qu'est-ce que je dois faire?

"We changed again, and yet again,
and it was now too late and too far to go back,
and I went on."
-- Charles Dickens, Great Expectations

I hope they are for the better. Changes, that is.

I like to believe that I have, grown up over the years. There are times when I really doubt that. Times like now.

Was reading Anantya's blog and she had a link to her friend's blog (Emilykim's blog) which was where I got the above quote. She writes well, thought-provoking. Yay, another blog for me to read! :) There was this part where she mentioned she feels like she's in a shoe shop, found the most gorgeous pair of shoes (the only pair left - I added this) and they don't have it in her size. You leave the shop feeling dejected, disappointed and helpless. (I added this.) A scenario I can totally relate to, literally (since I've got the longest feet!) or analogy-wise.

Was out with a colleague yesterday when he asked me, do you see yourself doing lab work for the rest of your life/career? I couldn't answer him. It's something I've thought about a lot myself but not able to find an answer to as yet. Perhaps, one day, it might dawn on me. Like when the heavens open up, and light comes streaming through.

Haiz... am I worrying/thinking too much? I've only just started in this job. I don't know what I want to do or could do with the rest of my life, which leads to a whole string of other questions which would be wise not to go into now. Important questions, aren't they? Best left for when I feel more prepared. For what? I ask...

I miss the days when I was studying and didn't really have to ponder about stuff like that. Sometimes I wish someone could make all my decisions for me. So I wouldn't have to be responsible for them.

Somehow managed to delve into this mode today. Should pull myself out of it. Focus on doing well with what I have now. What do I have now? Do humans have a tendency to want things that are out of their reach or that are obviously not available? O_o

Je pense je t'aime

I need help. From a higher power.