Guess what?? I got another 'E', another exam (Neurochemistry) where I'm at the bottom of the list. But right now I don't care. Haha. It's all over, at least for the next 10 weeks (where I will be in the lab). At this very moment, I feel relieved and will revel in that for a bit. (Oh ya, at the back of my mind, there's another exam, Neurophysiology, which was tough and I am worried I will fail that...)
I can't help feeling stupid (guess that will never go away). I think I'm learning to accept that, as a fact, something that will not change. That's me. Was speaking to 2 of my classmates (from the other program) after our exam who were sweet, trying to console me with stuff like Einstein not doing well in school, Bill Gates was a drop-out and so on. These are extraordinary people. And I am just a normal (or sub-normal?? ha) person trying to find out if she'll ever be good at anything. When I start thinking about my life, I start to worry... So for now I will leave it.
Tonight there's a dinner with my classmates at the house of a very humorous instructor who taught us 'Scientific writing' (his girlfriend will cook for us). In a way I do not really want to see my classmates again so soon (they remind me of school... argh... and I feel very inferior) but it should be ok so long as they don't discuss the exams.
I miss home. It's Chinese New Year on Mon. I have been invited for dinner with my Chinese and Taiwanese friends tomorrow and I am looking forward to celebrating it with them. My sis said she'd call me on MSN on Sunday so I can see the scrumptious spread of food my mum has prepared for reunion dinner. (You're mean, San!) That aside, I would be happy to talk to my parents and sis.I should leave this on a good note. Happy Ox Year!! :)
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Enjoy your break! You will catch up soon!
Don't worry and don't doubt yourself!
*hug*
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