How do I love thee? Let me count the ways...

How does one find one's niche in life??? Is Science my calling? I wonder...

A very detestable, unkempt, disgusting, oh-I-am-so-high-&-mighty-&-smart-&-all (Pui!!!) China colleague/housemate said he thinks I'm not suited for research, better to go into business, with an unsubtle note of I-mean-to-say-you-are-too-stupid-to-do-research. Anyway, I don't care about what he thinks. He is known in the company for his arrogance, disrepect for others and a whole lot of other things so it's no surprise that everyone dislikes him.

Anyhow, enough about the Pest. He's not worth my blog space.

Why did I choose to do biology? Because I like it, no? For me, research induces love-hate feelings... I mean, I do like my work. Well, most of the time... When my supervisor takes the effort to teach me new things and explain various concepts and rationale to me. When experiments go well and we get good results, which, sad to say is quite rare... O_o
Experiments in my hands seem to have a 'funny' (not in the haha way) tendency to give disappointing results... In the beginning when I was first given charge of running the experiments on my own, I made stupid mistakes which screwed things up (it can be very expensive when experiments are screwed up - the cost of the animals for exanple). But following ones (am surprised boss actually dared to let me do follow-ups), I learnt and didn't make any stupid mistakes (I think). But results still don't look good. I feel really frustrated here. Maybe that's a hint for me there... I know no one said research is easy, especially in drug discovery. My supervisor once said one has to be very very persistent in this area.
Other times, it can be boring because of the routine work I do as a technician, inevitable, I know. But still...
The other problem is I know I will never be able to progress in this field without a PHD. And that would mean 5 more years of school, without much income. I'm not sure I can do that.

I love you.I love you not. *picking flower petals off*

As for business/marketing, I know nuts about it and thus am a little afraid of making the decision to go into it since I know after which it's not very likely that I can get into the research arena again. Out of touch, I would be then. I don't even know if I can make it in this competitive, dog-eat-dog (excuse me for the cliche but I don't know another word to describe it) domain. My former boss told me before I left Singapore that he sees the potential in me to make it in this industry (business/marketing) and although he insists that he is very experienced, I have serious doubts about it. ha.

Qu'est-ce que je peux faire?