The memory of when I got home back in Nov of 2016, of feeling unbearably sad the first days, comes back to me clear as glass. I remember tearing up in my sis' car on the way home from the airport. It was really sweet of my sister...
She always liked the moment when she had a clock in pieces, with every wheel and spring carefully laid out on the black velvet cloth in front of her. It was like looking at Time, dismantled, controllable, every part of it understood... She wished her life was like that. It would be nice to reduce it to bits, spread them all out on the table, clean and oil them properly and put them together so that they coiled and spun like they ought to. But sometimes it seems that her life had been assembled by a not very competent craftswoman, who had allowed a number of small but important things to go ping into the corners of the room.