Thursday, July 26, 2007

'There, a faint shimmer of light!'
She gasped and ran towards it, stumbling in the relentless pitch-black void she's been trapped in, all alone. No sign of another living thing. No rats (or mice for that matter), no cockroaches, no ants, not even mosquitoes. She doesn't know whether to be glad or not.


'This must be just a nightmare, I'll wake up and find myself in my old comfy bed.' She thought to herself in the beginning. With her eyes closed, she pinched hard on her own arm. Opened her eyes gingerly, hopefully. Nothing. Still there.


'Now don't panic, I'm sure there's a way out of here.' Her hands groping the walls to sense her way around, her legs carried her on and on along the seemingly endless path.

The elusive glimmer was snuffed out in an instant like someone just blew out a candle and along with it went her hope of finding an exit. The darkness enveloped her once again as she slid onto the ground, drained.
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Monday, July 23, 2007

Just 2 secs...

and we'd have made it to the finals.

Yesterday we lost the 2nd place in the semi-finals to another boat by a difference of less than 2 secs. It was heart-wrenching (at least to me). When we crossed the finishing line, it seemed to me that all 3 boats were very close, though at that time I already had a sinking feeling that we were that bit behind the other 2.

After that I couldn't help thinking to myself, 'If only I had pushed myself harder towards the end.' It was my first time racing in the position of a pacer (1st pair at the front of boat). As the name suggests, the pacers set the pace for the team which should be followed so that everyone's synchronised.

If the pace is too slow, the boat lags behind the competitors. If the pace is too fast and not everyone can keep up, then coordination goes off and the boat slows too. The coxswain (very often the role of the coach) or the drummer has the full view of the team and the competitors so he/she will from time to time shout out commands for the rowers to pull harder, to the pacers to up the pace etc.

I was very nervous before the heats because to me, the responsibility of the pacers seemed quite a heavy one. Both of us panicked a little in the first race and was a little too fast (so some guys in the back were off), but luckily we still managed to come in second (lost to the first boat by a mere second!!!) and hence go on to the semi-finals. Coach's reassuring 'Good job, pacers' must have calmed my nerves a little and I went into the semi-finals a tad more composed than before. This time the pace was better and we were told after by our teammates on the shore that our synchronisation was good but (coach and captain said) we lacked the last surge of power at the finishing. Which was why we lost.

I felt somewhat defeated. But that was soon cured by a good feast at Bedok (corner) food centre. *rubs tummy in glee* ^_^ Before we left for our dinner, our vain (they went off to wash up and we had to wait for them) coach and captain announced that they had a discussion on their way and decided that the position of pacers are fixed. I was surprised. And honoured. Me? haha.

I've come to love the team. We talk and joke during training and over food, for those of us who always have dinner together afterwards. They are fun, easy-going people. And the captain (a.k.a my godfather) is very nice to me.

So that was Sunday, the Community Corporate Games. A lot of time wasted waiting for our races than being in the boat. That said, the organisers for this Games were rubbish.

Saturday morning was spent at Kallang training. (in the rain, very cooling!) The few regulars went for lunch nearby. Good ole greasy Indian food! I had a prata and shared a chicken briyani with my godpa.

After that I met a girlfriend, Lingling and her sister for a bit of shopping. They both bought a dress but sadly I have nothing to show for the trip. Though a dress (a little on the high side of the money scales) did catch my eye. Have been thinking about it... To buy or not to buy... (Sigh, the woes of a poor common girl...) We snacked a little here and there (The horrors!! haha) and Lingling and I even shared a nice big green tea with red bean ice-cream cone (that Hokkaido brand).
Then for dinner I had this incredibly tasty ramen at Central Mall in Clarke Quay. The menu was a laminated sheet of paper. A few side dishes other than ramen and that was it. Nothing else. I could barely believe the queue could be so long... even though it was past 9pm. I was starving but decided to wait cos' a friend had highly recommended it. It was well worth the wait!!!! The owner's Japanese and quite a few of the chefs and a waiter are Japanese too. It's a bit more expensive than your regular ramen places but it was really yummy. (I finished every drop of soup! Something I don't usually do other than my mum's soups.)

Friday evening was spent catching up with Mr dragonboat-slamming (haha, amazing we're still friends, eh? ;p) Xun over dinner at Sketches (I was a good girl, I had a small but good prawn salad with Ceasar dressing - this is quite full of fat actually... hee) and coffee at TCC. (Saved my calories on dinner for this - a slice of raspberry & dark chocolate cake!) A very enjoyable and relaxing time.
P.S.: Because Mr Hairy Potty complained about this paragraph being too insignificant, I'm back to make it more substantial. :) It sounds like a cliche but this is true, I swear! :D The evening flew by. Before I realised it, we were rushing to the MRT station to catch the last train home. It was past 12. It was very comfortable being able to chat mindlessly about anything and everything. (Now that's euphemism for talking cock.) There was no need for me to agonise over what to say. Oooo, and kapo-me managed to dig some secret information out of suddenly tight-lipped Mr Nice Guy. (See, I came up with so many names for you!) *nudge nudge* ;) hee

That was my last weekend. I can't wait for this one to arrive... Almost all mapped out already. :)
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Friday, July 20, 2007

The myth

The ugly not-so-little duckling was preening its dull grey feathers by the bank when it caught a glance of itself in the clear blue waters of the lake. She turned her fluffy head away quickly, the reflection a harsh reality she could barely stand to face. She didn't have to look to know that all around her were graceful, beautiful birds with plumage of all the brillant colours of the spectrum. Without thinking, she shrunk her neck into her bulky body and covered her head with her wings, as if by doing so, she could will herself to disappear.

When she was much younger, hiding in misery in the tall grasses from everyone who pointed and made horrible faces at her, she overheard someone talking about a lovely, moving fairytale, 'The Ugly Duckling', in which an ugly duckling, much like herself, turned into a magnificent white swan after enduring much hardship while he was growing up. In the beginning, she bore earnest hopes that the story was real. But, after much waiting, she doubted the wonderful life-changing event would ever happen to her. Slowly now, she had come to accept that no one would ever take any notice of her other than to throw some words of ridicule her way. No one would play with her or let her join in their games. 'Well, I am happy on my own, doing things my way, ' she thought, an obvious bid to console herself.
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Wednesday, July 18, 2007

When life loses its appeal

The old train slows,
No passengers, no goods, no fuel,
No schedule, nowhere in particular to be,
Somewhere along the track it stops entirely,
Possibly never to start again.
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Monday, July 16, 2007

Sorry, we've run out of peace & quiet. Can I get you something else?

I'm not the most patient person I know (my Sis is soooo much better!) and my fuse can sometimes be somewhat short. But yesterday it was non-existent and I could barely rein in the temper.

I was supposed to go climbing with friends in the morning but didn't feel up to it. Thought to myself that a lazy Sunday holed up at home would be good. If only I had known better... Sigh :(

For some reason, I was in a mood (I rarely ever get into one. Ask my sister.) and I was so irritable the slightest noise made my ears ring and my head like someone's trying to separate the left and right hemispheres.

On an unfortunate day as this, my loud nephew was there and being his usual self he was screaming and shouting most of the time. Toys laid strewn all over the living room floor. The puppy, when let out, ran excitedly around your legs so you could barely walk without kicking her. (That's her usual self too. I suppose everyone was, except me.) The bastard prancing around like a king. The air-conditioning repairman doing his job. My aunt and mum chatting happily away. In summary, the house was as clamorous as it could be. There was nowhere I could hide away from everything. The sounds reverberated and seemed to fortify in our small flat. I tried reading/taking a nap in the room I shared with sis, but the door hardly kept out any of the racket and people (mum, sis and nephew - since he follows her around) moved in and out of the tiny room.

I almost always immediately feel bad after I've snapped at someone and yesterday was no exception, especially considering the number of times I blew up. I'm sorry for my horrid behaviour. Terribly regretted not going climbing.

Anyway, it was in the plans to inaugurate the oven mum bought while we were away, so Sis and I went out to buy the ingredients we lacked for baking. A few minutes after leaving the house my head felt like it had cleared a little. And sweet Sis tried to talk me out of THE mood. I wondered if I could blame it on PMS. (Though I don't usually experience much of the mood swing-y kind. And this, if it was due to that, would be one of the worst cases I've ever had!)

Baking was slightly therapeutic. Maybe cos I kept myself busy in the kitchen. Luckily the cakes turned out ok. After that, all I wanted was to rest/watch tv until it was time to go to bed. With the dread of the approaching work week, Sunday nights are always depressing times for me.

I was worn out. So, when the puppy decided the cup of water my sister poured me was tasty, I broke and bawled my eyes out. (Over a cup of water!?! Can you imagine that?!?!) And pleaded for my sister to take the puppy out of the room.

All I would like was some peace & quiet. Was it unreasonable?
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Thursday, July 12, 2007

Your royal plumpness

is bored and hungry. So she decided to share some food photos that have been buried in her archives:

First up: Breakfast!
One of the tastiest (imo) breakfast in the world: Oats. I've grown to really love it. My mum made me eat it since young (I was the only person in the family who would eat it with her.) and I used to not like it much. I'd eat it only cos' she asked me to. Now it's pretty much my everyday breakfast staple. Throw in some dried fruits and nuts and a couple of fresh strawberries on top and doesn't it look appetising? :)


(In background's an eggtart flown in from HK and a slice of my mum's homemade bread.)

Next: I'd title this series of photos 'A mum's LOve'. (You'd see why in a bit.)
I realised I've never taken any photos of the lovely packed lunches my mum has made me. So I've made a point of snapping some whenever I can. Presenting my fave vege, the broccoli!! So green, pretty and crunchy!! :) Blanched and drizzled with sesame oil. Brown rice with various kinds of beans in it; delicious... And seaweed omelette. I love seaweed!!! Oh and the bright yellow stuff? That's achar. Homemade. I like. Who says healthy food has to be boring? :D





































Such beautiful colours, wouldn't you agree? (And all so mouth-wateringly yummy!!) I especially love the orangey-yellow of the pumpkin above.

When the Mum's not cooking:
Smoked salmon sandwich and cappuccino from the Bakin' Boys cafe near office. Coffee was good. Sandwich ok. (It's looking like it pales in comparison to the lunches above.)

Just in case you thought the food's been too healthy for me to be worthy of my title. ;p This is one of a bowl of claypot laksa from the hawker centre near Alexandra Road/Queensway.

BBQ dinner at the students', Labour Day evening. Toby made me grilled salmon and I prepared the salad. There was also chicken and beef. All delicious stuff!! ^_^ Thanks, boy!

Lunch/Dinner at Aerin's in Raffles City Shopping Centre with a friend:

The starter we shared: A refreshing pear & walnut salad. Pears were broiled hence warm and soft, and very sweet while the sundried tomatoes lent a tanginess to the dish.
My main course: smoked salmon tagliatelle in a slightly creamy wild mushroom sauce. Mmmm...








A la carte sushi/sashimi dinner at Ikoi in Miramar hotel: So fresh! Enough said.

















Baked goods (not necessarily good):

Baked French toast drizzled with honey. (Don't be deceived by the burnt bits. It was actually quite nice. Only cos' the bread was good. Bought fresh from Cedele Bakery.)



Pistachio cake. Not too bad. I liked the lemony glaze.
















Homemade dinner: Hearty Italian meatloaf covered with a tomato-based sauce, accompanied by broccoli in ginger and oven-baked spicy potato wedges. And of cos' a glass of red.













Then last but definitely not the least; let's not forget dessert!!!
Apple rhubarb pie with a generous scoop of real vanilla ice-cream (the kind you can see the little black bits of vanilla seeds in) from the meal at Aerin's mentioned above.




One of the richest chocolate ice-cream I've ever had from a tub:

Fauchon all the way from Japan!!! (which is, funny enough, a French gourmet brand.)














Enough pictures to whet your appetite? hee. It sure did for me... ^_^ Glad the day's almost over.
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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

You f*cking Singaporeans!!!

Was my very first thought when I missed my train by about 2 seconds yesterday evening. I know I probably shouldn't be complaining about such a small matter, but hell, this is my space where I let loose (i.e. whine, bitch and occasionally, curse) so that's just what I'll do.

When will they ever get into their thick, idiotic skulls that in a civilised society, people stand on one side of the escalator (in Singapore's case, the left side) so that others who are in a rush/do not appreciate standing still on a slow-moving escalator could then easily walk past on the right??? No, they have to stand in a zig-zag manner so that it's impossible to overtake. This is not the first time I've felt frustrated by how far behind the rest of the developed world Singapore is in the domain of etiquette/social graces.

Last night, it made the all difference between my getting into a near-empty train and waiting 10 minutes for an extremely crowded one. I was hungry and tired after gym and all I could think of was to get home, have my dinner and rest. 2 seconds, that was it. If people had been considerate enough to leave space for others to pass (like everywhere else in Europe) I would have been able to make the earlier train, sit down and nap till I reach my station.

I don't carry much hope of seeing this situation improve in my lifetime. Maybe it'll happen if the government come up with a campaign for it or fine people who stand on the wrong side of the escalator. Then maybe Singaporeans will learn.
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Monday, July 09, 2007

Tell the world I need 5 more minutes

It feels weird, trying overcome the inertia of getting back to regular life. Like the body is functioning but the mind is still somewhere else. I miss the days of wondering around in a new, unfamiliar city with Sis, seeing sights and sounds while we walk miles and miles.

I need to get back into my routine. The last week spent entertaining a friend from Europe on a business trip here was enjoyable (a drink after work then dining out late every evening, coffee on a Friday afternoon, introducing him to some local food) but muddled up my attempts to return to normalcy.

This week, I've decided, I'll summon my mind back from wherever it has escaped to. And start acting on stuff I've always wanted to do but have been putting on hold for whatever excuse reason. A DIRE need to get back to the gym. (I've been told by my captain my stamina's slipping.) Besides, I've a sneaky feeling I'm probably piling on the pounds too. Sigh...

The first weekend after I came back went by in a blur. I remember trying my darnest to get to Bedok reservoir for the competition on the morning of 30th June, Sat. (Sis was really sweet to drag herself up in the morning to accompany me there and lend her support, even though we'd both only landed the night before.) Luckily I made it through the 2 races. (Though not without feeling a bit sick after the first.) The team didn't make it through the heats but I was very glad for the experience. (And for catching a glance of the object of a major crush I had back in school. hee.) Spent the rest of the afternoon at my cousin's with my Sis, playing with nephew in the pool.

Distinctly remember waking up on Sunday morning with aching shoulders and back. (And how I sadistically enjoyed that feeling. haha) Ventured into JB late Sunday afternoon to meet up with an old friend from KL who's in JB that weekend for work. According to him, we've not seen each other for about 6, 7 years!! Boy, was it a nightmare getting through the Malaysian customs!!! It was so bloody hot and the queue was horrifyingly long!! It must have taken at least an hour before I got past the gates and friend had been waiting on the other side for as long as I've been queueing. He drove us to a big mall I've never been to where we leisurely window-shopped and caught up with each other. I bought some PapaRoti to bring home with me cos' it went extinct in Singapore before I could eat a 2nd one. Getting back into Singapore later that night was a similarly painstaking ordeal, but this time was trying to get onto the 170 bus across the causeway and after clearing the Singapore customs. I didn't get home till midnight.

This weekend was almost as fun. Training on Sat as usual. Dinner with some of the teammates at an Indian place near the Kallang mrt station where they served yummy prata, briyani and maggi goreng.
After dinner, as part of my regular practice, whenever I'm out close to either of the 2 Carrefour-s in Singapore, I'd go there to buy bread, dried nuts and berries (sometimes alfalfa sprouts) for my mum. Since Sis's working nearby in Clarke Quay and the weather was rather nice, I decided to walk over to look for her and go home together. I managed to persuade her to go for a coffee together (just like when we were travelling. The European lifestyle, I called it) before heading home. She was too tired to cross the river to get to TCC (where I wanted to go) and since she's feeling thrifty at the moment (even though I had offered to treat her), we ended up just sitting by the river, dangling our legs over the edge and chatting. In the end though, with my powerful skills of cajolery (ha), I bought us a java chip frappuccino from Starbucks near the bus stop and we sat in there for a while sipping the drink, talking, relaxing. It's funny how with us both back home now, I'd sometimes feel like I miss spending time with my sister. In the 3 weeks we were travelling together, we spent all of our waking time together and I never tire of her. (With the exception of rare occasions, when we had our little squabbles which was probably when we hated each other. haha.) Back home, even though we share a bedroom, we have different schedules and I don't see as much of her. So, that little coffee break was nice. ^_^ We'd have to make time to go out together, san! :)

Sunday saw me tagging along with a couple of my dragonboat teammates to Yishun Safra for an afternoon of rock climbing. My first experience! I've always wanted to try it! Just never had any friends who were into it. So glad they are such welcoming and helpful people, letting me join them and coaching me. It was fun! Though I almost killed myself trying to squeeze into Danny's climbing shoes. [The guys (and girls) there are all so small sized (the better for climbing)! Actually, I should be lamenting the fact that I am big with boats for feet. :'(] They were telling me the shoes are supposed to be about a size to one-&-a-half sizes smaller than your normal shoe size so your toes are curled up and there'd be a better grip on the holds. They also said I'd get used to it. Oh, but the pain was excrutiating! I couldn't even walk properly after getting the shoes on. (Ask me if I feel like one of Cinderella's evil stepsisters.)
I'm embarrassed to say I didn't complete the 15m wall. I got stuck in the middle at a hump and didn't manage to hoist myself up past that. It had also started to pour properly when I was climbing so I decided to get down. By this time my feet hurt so bad I could barely stand on them when I landed.
I'd promised myself the next time, I'd finish it at least once! The others were very encouraging, blaming the weather and reassuring me I did ok for a first-timer. We moved on to the bouldering gym. And there I climbed in my sister's old track shoes (whose soles were falling to pieces because of it) and though they were less than sleek, it was so much more comfortable.
Then they brought me to the shop selling climbing equipment there where I tried on bigger shoes but all of which still hurt my already sore (and freakishly long) toes. The next time I'd have to rent the shoes (as comfortable a size as I could possibly get them).
I sat and chatted with them over their chicken rice dinner at a coffeeshop near the interchange before I went home to have my homecooked dinner. Lounged around reading before I fell asleep on my comfy bed.

So, that's my update.
Next Sun when I go climbing I'd bring my camera and take pictures of the climbing experts (a.k.a spidermen). hee. :D
Oh and by the way, the pics from my holiday will come in time. My lazy bones have me postponing the laborious work of filing, naming and uploading. Also, I wish I could write more about the trip, but I haven't been consciencious enough during the trip to make notes every night and I wonder how much I could remember now. Hopefully the pics will make up for the lack of words. I am sure there's truth behind the saying, 'A picture is worth a thousand words'.
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Thursday, July 05, 2007

The geek in me thinks this is rather cute. And somewhat true.

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Wednesday, July 04, 2007

What do you want?

I don't want to be here.

It's like waking up from a nightmare, only to find it's quite real.

Head clearing up that tiny bit.

Maybe I'll finally find the answers I've been looking for...

And be brave enough to do something about it.
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May you sleep like a baby

Bluer skies than I can imagine,
Daylight like it'll never end,
Blazing sun, though comfortably dry,
An after-dinner coffee by the sidewalk, watching the world roll by,
Staring in awe at amazingly high-ceilinged, gold-leaf-coated cathedrals,
Acting like cultured, art connoisseurs (oohing and aahing appropriately),
A solemn, depressing concentration camp,
Finding joy in the littlest things,
Strawberry-picking,
A hike in the mountain,
Topless beach (young, pretty women included),
The unexpected bronzy tan,
Trying on pretty clothes and heels, just for the fun of it,
Yoghurt, museli, fruits, bread - our staple.
Not to forget the junk food (biscuits, crispsss, chocolate) too,
An ice-cream cone in each city,
Hunting for authentic local food,
Hours on end in airports,
Relief at arriving safely (even if it took hours and hours longer than it should have) at every new destination,
Sleeping with rumbling stomachs some nights,
Wondering how many miles we've walked,
Attempting to take it all in so it might last a bit longer in the memory department.

And almost like it's never happened before, back in my isolated world of me, myself and I, desperately hanging onto fragile threads of sanity.
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