Friday, April 28, 2006

Blah blah... grumbles I...

M surprised me after lunch today when he come over to our office with me upon exiting the elevator. I thought it was because he had to see someone on our side. Turned out he wanted to talk to me alone (Ling Ling, one of our colleagues - a very interesting girl - had lunch with us) before leaving for the airport. It is very, very rare that he comes over our side of the office just to talk to me. Actually, I can't think of any other instances...

He makes it soooo hard for me to stay mad at him. Just when I think I've found something to be upset about (a certain theory goes that if I start to get angry with them 2 then I won't be so sad when they leave), he has to ruin my plan by doing something slightly redeeming. Pfft...

Off to meet the twit gang for a bit! Hopefully I'll feel better after seeing them. :)

Have a good labour day weekend, people!
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Emotional train wreck. Passenger: 1, Death toll: 1.

I started scribbling on a scrap piece of paper, that previous little piece of writing (I wouldn't call it a poem since there's no rhyme or structure to it) on the MRT after gym yesterday night. Back home, I got my 'lil sis to edit it with me. With her literary insights, I came up with that.

Ever since I started this blog (my initial intention was simply to chronicle my days in Paris), writing has served as a good emotional outlet for me. I turn to it for expression, for therapy. And surprisingly, it helps. Though in extreme (such as when I become about as overwrought as a 3-year old girl whose toy has been taken away from, can get) circumstances, I'll still require some form of human intervention. And that's when I'm very thankful for my sis, close friends (who offer a listening ear, a crying shoulder, erh, I meant a shoulder to cry on, and make me laugh inspite of myself) and of cos' the few people who bother to read my blog and leave sweet encouraging messages. ^_^

How I could have been so deliciously and idiotically euphoric yesterday afternoon (yes sis, I know it was just a piece of bread...) then end up bawling my eyes out at the end of the night is admittedly completely beyond me.

The last week or so have been chains of exhausting, precipitous ascensions and descensions. I've always believed that were life to be a graph, I'd rather have a series of curves or straight lines of positive and negative gradients than a zero gradient horizontal line. Maybe I haven't made myself clear on this; I really should. So here goes, all these in a matter of a few weeks is too much... it'll be nice to have m (y = mx + c) tappered off right about now... *speaking out loud, to no one in particular*

Still feeling zombified today.
Working.in.slow.motion.
Functioning.solely.on.autopilot.
One of my rats took advantage of my condition and greedily sank his teeth into my finger. Before, when they try to 'nibble' on my fingers, (it usually doesn't hurt too bad or bleed much), a mild French swear word would inexorably escape my lips. However, today, as my finger bled profusely in my glove, I didn't even make so much as a peep. (or a *beep* for that matter. ha.)
Considering the number of times I get bitten, wouldn't you agree with me that it's a pity I don't work with mutated spiders instead? ;p [Aiyah so sayang, else will have superpowers liao...]

As we were on our way to the gym yesterday, M had very kindly informed me that he has got his return flight (the final one) back to UK booked. Departure would be very soon. But, but, listen to this, it's unprofessional of him to tell me the date at this point in time. Unprofessional?!?! The last time I checked, we were friends! 'We are not in a professional situation right now!' I told him. At least let me know the damn date! His (stupid) reason being, the date is not set in stone and could still be changed. Ya, like a delay of a week. Oooo, that's a whole world of difference leh... Then as if this wasn't bad enough, he had to remind me that A is leaving early June.

Realisation struck, and something collapsed within.

Both of them have gone away for the long weekend. Leaving me plenty of time to brood over their impending departures. :( Bleagh. I hate goodbyes. I mustav said this before.
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l'Esperance

Dread, sinking like lead, to the depths of my stomach;
at times threatening to reverse its path and escape.
Never succeeding, it falls harder, more forcefully;
a kick in the gut.

On the cross-trainer, I feel I could run forever;
faster, faster, maybe I could surpass it.
A weak, futile attempt.

No more pain barriers;
the body mindless of the physical exertion.
I never knew negative emotions are untapped wells of energy.
But like an ebbing tide, they are slowly draining away.
A zombie.
A being, sans espoir.
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Thursday, April 27, 2006

Talking rats.

Wonder if the constant daily interaction with my rats has made my thoughts slightly incoherent... bwahaha... =D maybe sometime I would start speaking rat... Am reading Terry Pratchett's Amazing Maurice and his educated rodents. Very interesting and funny. (Zan, have you read this one?) Very close to my heart, this book is. Makes me wish my rats could talk. Then I could just tell them what to do, and there'd be no need to train them for months on end. Haha... =) Hey, a girl could dream, can't she?

Gotta run. Gym calling. Ciao
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Of Greek gods and pain aux pommes

Someone gave me an apple bread (though he argues it's gateau, not pain. I say pain!) after lunch today!!! :D It's one he knows I like (we both like it - have bought it together a few times before), so that was sweet. I meant the bread. Hee.
ooooo, I'm so easily pleased!!! Anyway, it's made my day. ^_^

Something triggered the words 'Greek gods' in my mind just now. I suspect a golden tan, a good T-shirt, an impressive display of veins and sinewy forearm muscles might have been among the reasons why. Haha... Am thinking statues. David by Michelangelo.

I'm not making any sense, am I? O_o
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Blood and bones...

Has anyone heard of the movie 'Hostel'? If you're a fan of gore, go catch it! That was one show that made my stomach heave... I thought it worst than Hannibal. Takes a sick mind to come up with a movie like that. I wouldn't say it's a bad show, would actually have to give the director (Eli Roth) and Quentin Tarantino (producer) credits for their ability to instill that level of horror. In the words of M, the faces of the crowd leaving the theatre after the show were a mixture of disgust, anger and pall.

It was on the spur of the moment that we decided to go to the cinema last Saturday. And since we didn't want too late a show, there were only 2 choices, The Sentinel or Hostel. I don't fancy Michael Douglas much (though M said he's a good actor) and I figured, hey a Quentin Tarantino movie wouldn't go too wrong... (We had no idea what the movie was about! So much for spontaneity!!!)

We sat at the cafe for a bit before the movie is due to start and flipped through the I-S magazine. I found a review on Hostel in it and it was 4 stars out of 5. We read through the synopsis which sounded really interesting. The reviewer ended his writing saying he would watch it again just for kicks. After coming out of the theatre, I thought that guy must be nuts!!! Kicks???!! Geehz... the kind of people in this weird world...

So, anyway, earlier that day, I had met up with an old girlfriend whom I hadn't seen for a long time. She wanted to go to a beauty parlour in town that was having an open house so I went with her. I knew they were going to try to sell me stuff but I had no intention of being pushed into buying anything I didn't want. After spending almost the whole afternoon there, I decided that some facials might do my skin some good and it was not horribly expensive so I signed up for some. I haven't gone for any. But am hoping that when I do go for it, it'll actually work.

This particular girlfriend of mine is pretty (very popular with guys) and is quite the beauty queen. She spends a whole lot of money on her skin. Think it's high time I learn some tricks from her... Though I wouldn't go spending $ like she does. O_o
A lot of times I wish I were a bloke. Then I wouldn't have to worry about wrinkles, freckles and having a 'shelf-life'.

Sigh. Age is indeed catching up...
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Des hauts et des bas

Yesterday was a I-don't-feel-like-working,-really-really-don't day. But boss came along at the end of the day and told me I've been doing a good job cos' my rats are doing well. I had sent my boss some training data last Friday and he has had a look at them over the weekend. :)

So today I'm hard at work again. :D Had a meeting with him this morning and made plans for future studies and stuff like that. He mentioned that the tests are my responsibility and though he could guide me along but to make them work it's up to me. As is my career; building a profile in the company, perhaps getting a job within the company in UK etc.

That the 2 tests are solely in my charge sounds quite daunting to me at the moment. There's still tons I need to learn and that means tons and tons of literature to read, which means working at home to read them. Have really got to be disciplined to do that.

Speaking of discipline, I went to the gym all by myself yesterday!!! Je suis fiere de moi!!! Hee. Used to, when both my gym buddies can't go to the gym (which is very, very rarely) that naturally means I don't go either. Hier, I felt so fat (I always eat so much over the weekends, especially sun), I had to drag my sorry a*s to the gym. Ha. :D I think I'm getting the hang (and maybe even slightly enjoying it *the horror!*) of the work-gym-home routine.

Unrelated to the above rambling; something's been on my mind since Sunday.

There was an excerpt from the biography of the ex-CEO of KPMG who was diagnosed with late stage brain cancer and an update about the ex-RG girl with tongue cancer in last Sunday's Sunday Times. Reading these as my mum told me the lump in my grandfather's lung is malignant. I listened in mute silence, not knowing what to think, to say. Mum said they've decided not to let granddad know about his condition, or to undergo radiotheraphy, it'll all be too much for him. The coming days would be difficult for the family. Like before with grandmother. I only hope grandpa wouldn't have to suffer as much as grandma did. Pray for him with me, would you? Sunday afternoon I went with my uncle and a couple of cousins to visit him. He had lost weight. So different from just a few months ago when he was happily telling me about going for a holiday with his friends in Malaysia on Tiger Airways. As with every visit to the hospital, I was at a loss for words. Did manage to ask him a few questions and chat a little. Am resolved to talk to him more the next time I visit. Maybe I could tell him about my work! Shall do that.

Mum said granddad had stopped smoking 10 years ago, but...
I wish people I love could stop smoking. Especially dad. :(

Big sigh. It seems very heartless that I could put away the harsh reality of my granddad being sick and be ok at work, talk to my friends, do my own things etc. How could I do that???

M called while I was in the hospital, so he was the only friend I've talked to about this. And he was kind enough to call me back on Sunday night to check if I was ok.

Entry about last weekend would have to wait.
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Friday, April 21, 2006

Writing is an itch I wanna scratch...

I wanna write!!! *stamps feet and whines*

Work occupies all of my productive hours! Well, I suppose that's how it should be, and what I'm paid to do. But I would just like a half-hour or something to myself where I can do my emails and blog... Sigh... These days I'd be glad if I could reply my friends' emails and write an entry like once a week. (Considering my rule of not getting stuck on the com over the weekends. I'd rather have my head in a book if I were to stay at home.)

Almost everyday ends with me feeling mentally exhausted. Training rats is not an easy task. Like humans, there are significant variations on how well or fast individual rats learn. To be able to cater to these differences in order to help the more timid or slower rats improve is the most difficult part I think. One needs a lot of patience...

On some good news, the other batch of rats I've taken over from a colleague who left us a month ago, they've improved and my boss is saying that we could start doing actual studies on them very soon!!! I feel slightly accomplished! Hee. ^_^ (Only slightly because my ex-colleague has spent almost 7 months training these rats before I took over so he did most of the hard work.) I sure hope my new batch of rats wouldn't take that long to train... *Crossing fingers* A really nice side-effect of having 2 batches of rats (2 tests, 120 rats!) is that I scuttle between 2 rooms (taking cages out, putting them back), hardly any chance of sitting down the whole day (except maybe lunch and a few minutes here and there) so I'm pretty sure I'm burning calories! :D

There's a draft of my last weekend still lying in my Posting folder which I hope I could finish by today. On vera...
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Rollercoaster ride...

Didn't make it to Taman Negarah last weekend. :( Was quite upset for a while that we couldn't go. But the 2 champs assured me we could still go places (albeit within Singapore probably) and do stuff.

I was their temporary housemate for the weekend. :) Felt like a pseudo-holiday, which compensated for my not being able to get out of Singapore.

Heavy, heavy rain on Friday thwarted our plan to go cycling in Pulau Ubin. So we ended having a big lunch in Changi village, then headed to the Changi Prison Museum which was interesting. Brought back memories of history lessons in Secondary 1 & 2. The rain had subsided after we were done at the museum so we headed to the beach to watch the planes go by. Chatted as we walked along the beach until it was time to head home.

Took a cab from the beach to the airport (Terminal 2) and as Alex wanted to check if it's cheaper to buy a plane ticket at the last minute, we took a queue number at the SIA counter and waited to be served. As we were waiting, the 3 of us oogled at the air stewardesses walking by. ;p
Turns out that it is actually slightly more expensive (some service charge thingy) if one buys a plane ticket at the counter a few hours before the flight. Just before we left, the customer service lady commented that the 3 of us looked like we are on Amazing Race. I took a look at myself and the 2 guys and laughed. There's truth in that, since our dress code was for cycling at Pulau Ubin. Haha.

On the MRT ride back, I fell asleep, cosily sardined between them.

We decided to go for a run together after we got home. I knew I wouldn't be able to keep up with those 2 guys so I told them I'd be right behind. We did a lap (a really long one, at least that was what it felt like to me... O_o) around Queenstown and the guys went for a second round. The marathon runner amongst us commented that I'm a good runner. Imagine that!!! *grinning from ear to ear* :D He said he thinks I could probably do 10km in 50 minutes. I seriously don't think I am good at running (I'm really slow...) but I'll take the compliment anyway. :)

M (Michel's my nickname for him, but for simplicity's sake, I'll refer to him as M here) made some tuna sandwiches for dinner and made me eat half a sandwich, even though I told him I wasn't hungry. He insisted that I eat something or my body's gonna cave in on itself. Quite sweet of him, that was. ^_^ The interesting thing is, whenever I'm with them 2, especially at their place, M is the only one who prepares food for me and makes sure I eat. Cereal, sandwiches, scrambled eggs, toasts, fruits etc. While A (Aleggs is how he says I call him. A's easier for writing.) says that I can help myself to anything in the house, he very seldom sits down to eat with me and M.

After dinner, they settled down on the couch, me on the inflatable bed and they decided to watch Star Wars Episode IV while I proceeded to fall asleep not long after the movie started. Ha. :) My eyes opened only when A turned off the tv. A went to bed while M and I stayed up a bit to read before going back to sleep.

The next day, A decided he wanted to go to St John's and Kusu Islands, both of which I've never set foot on. M and I agreed happily and we had a quick breakfast before jumping into a cab (these guys are always taking taxis!) to Sentosa for the ferry. To our dismay, when we arrived at about 1pm (just in time for the 130pm ferry), we found that the last ferry back to Sentosa was 315pm. That gives us no time to us to explore the islands.

M suggested we just stay on Sentosa and get some sun on the beach. Both A and I concurred and we took a chairlift (I almost dropped my water bottle and flip-flops!!! Thank God I grabbed them in time!) up to where the boys filled their stomachs with subway sandwiches and took the louch down! It was way fun!!! We zigzagged past the slow-coaches in front of us. But after a couple of curves, the guys went so fast I lost them... I could have gone faster, I think, but I was trying to err on the side of caution since it was the first time I've driven a 'louch'.

The beach was great. Loads of bikini-clad babes, sun, sea... Didn't realise how much I miss being on a beach until then. M shared his beach towel with me close to the shade of the palm trees and A moved his towel where he could get the most sun (slathered on a generous amount of sunscreen) and went to sleep.

At some point, A woke up and said he'd fancy a swim and all 3 of us went swimming. I surprised myself by going out as far as the guys (almost halfway between the shore and the farout buoys. I think it was cos' I felt relatively safe with the guys around. Both of them know lifesaving and M's a strong swimmer. After swimming around a bit, A said he wanted to try to swim out to where the buoys are. I protested fervently. I might start panicking if they leave my side. But as I calm my nerves (and stop thinking like a baby), I told them to go ahead and that if I get scared, I'd just swim back to shore (that's if I could make it back that far!) and that they should be careful cos' it's quite far out. I watched as all I could see of them were tiny bobs in the water before disappearing (I gasped!) then resurfaced again. M swam back towards me with powerful strokes. A quite leisurely paddled back. :)

We swam back to shore soon after, A leading the way, while M kept vigilance on me (turning back to check that I'm still alive) as I follow. M turned nice and brown (sounds like food. haha) at the end of the evening. A complained that it wasn't fair that M tans nicely while it's so difficult for him to get any colour. Then he conceded that it was possibly cos' he put on too much sunscreen. (M didn't put on any except for a little on his shoulders and head. (unprotected-by-hair head ;p)

Just before we left Sentosa (cos' the sky was looking menacingly dark), A somehow started talking about climbing trees. And I managed to convince M to try. And he did it! Like a monkey! ;p Have pictures to prove! Hee. A said he probably can't but after M showed him the tactics to doing it, he did it too! Not wanting to be left out, I boldly said I wanna climb too. I could barely get a few steps up the tree... M was watching my back. A trying to encourage me, take pictures and laugh, all at the same time. >_< I tried pulling myself higher, almost lost my footing. I came down then tried again, this time, getting up slightly higher, then FELL! M didn't have time to react. The lower left-side of my body suffered some abrasions. A little blood and the guys got all worried about me. ha.

A called for a cab. (the queue at the bus stop and taxi stand was so longgg!) We got back home, had something to eat, (M made some spaghetti for himself and me. A said he wasn't hungry or something...) got changed and headed to the gym. (Those guys are mad! They have to go to the gym almost everyday!)

Before going to the gym, we had decided we were going to try to catch 'The Producers' at 955pm at Cathay after. It was a tight fit since we got to the gym after 8. As we exited Somerset station, A sent M to try to get the tickets first (since M is the runner amongst us) while A and I walked fast.

M managed to get the tickets! The show was hilarious! The boys have watched the original theatrical performance of it in London before and said the movie was very nearly as good. :)

Back home, I stir-fried some chicken fillet for M and he had them in a sandwich while I only had appetite for a Nutella toast. We all went to bed soon after.

Sunday was uneventful except for a piece of news that ended my weekend with a 'bang'. Spent the morning chatting to M. Breakfast. Went to the pool with A late afternoon. Which was when A broke the news to me that he'd soon go back home to do his PhD. For a minute, I had thought that A being A, was just teasing me. But I soon found out he wasn't joking. I was quite close to tears. I am happy for him that he's got a scholarship for an amazing project and all but I couldn't help feeling upset that I wouldn't be hanging out with either one of them soon. I had thought A liked it in Singapore and would stay around for a bit so even when M leaves, I'd still have 1 buddy left. Now he's leaving even before M does. :(

Big grey clouds gathered ominously in the distance and slowly moved closer as he explained things to me. What an adept reflection of how I felt... We went for a dip in the pool. Fat droplets of rain fell, I stubbornly sat on the steps leading to the pool, refused to get out just to watch A fret. He cracked me up with his screams of getting struck by lightning if I don't get out. Laughing was my way of covering up how intensely affected I was. As a last resort, A lifted me out of the pool and hastened me to get home.

When we got back, M was still hard at work on his com and when I checked my phone in my bag in the lounge, there was a text from him that said 'Get in quick! :(' Sweet. A complained to M of me not wanting to come back while I tried to give M a wet bear hug. ^_^ Spent some time reading after my shower and chatted with them both a little more before going home in the evening.
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Ah, finally finished this entry. Now on to the weekend just past... I wonder when that one will be finished...
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Hang on! Long weekend ahead! Yoohoo!!!

Had an enjoyable Friday evening with 2 of my chums last week.
The boys were hungry after gym and decided to go to Bugis to a restaurant they call 'Seafood in a pan'. (which actually is Fish & Co, but they insisted on calling it that.) When we got there we found the whole area where it used to be cordoned off for renovations. They then wanted to go to Seoul Garden but upon arriving there, the waitress told us their buffet was closed. Well, understandable, seeing as it was like 10pm already. That leaves 2 disappointed, hungry males and tired me looking for another place to have dinner. After walking everywhere, they decided on this Chinese food place where they've eaten before. Me thinks it was a little expensive but food was pretty good. It was funny to see the look on the lady's face after they were done ordering. She asked me if I wanted to change the pineapple rice from a medium to a small cos' they've already ordered so much! I had to explain to her that the 2 guys are very hungry. :D

We had some interesting conversations during and after dinner, which possibly is not meant for public reading (and I can't remember exactly what they were talking about, except maybe something about spunky bubbles) so I won't write about it. :) Then we had a milkshake each at Mac to top it all off.
Ahh... milkshakes are so yummy!!! ^_^
Ahh... I just felt all my work in the gym cancelled off. >_< Ha.

Weather on Sat was somewhat depressing, I didn't get to do anything I had wanted to do (namely, go to the pool and shopping).

Last Sat was a looooong, long night out. It was a post-birthday celebration for a colleague, who also happens to be a close friend, hence I had to go even though I wasn't feeling up to it. Though the places we chilled out at were quite nice, my heart simply wasn't in it 3/4 of the time. A few of them asked if I was ok.
'You are not the usual bouncy Ping. What's wrong?' One of the girls asked me.
'Dunno. I think it's PMS.' The response which made Alex gag. He can't stand hearing 'girly' (his term for words such as menstruation, ovaries, you-get-the-idea...) words or anything associated with those ideas. So funny... :p

We started in The Balcony which is next to Heeren's. Then went to a bar along Emerald Hill Road, where the waiters and waitresses who served us were so thick it makes my blood boil! You see, Alex ordered a bottle of champagne when the birthday boy went to the washroom and he asked the waiter to bring the bottle to our table and give it to him when he got back. But the dumbass waiter popped the bottle at an empty table behind us and with the airhead waitresses, had a mini celebration before pouring out the champagne and serving it to us. The part of me being absolutely Singaporean didn't want to take this lying down so I marched off and complained to the manager, who gave us some pathetic shooters to pacify me.

Soon after we left to go to Attica along Clarke Quay. Expensive. (We paid $28 each for access to both floors and 2 drinks.) Quite nice. Somewhat similar to MOS. I had never imagined there are so many tall Caucasians in Singapore. And they all seemed to be in one place that night. Many of them good-looking too. A lot of tall, leggy model-like girls wearing the tiniest skirts!

Sunday was spent recuperating.

Yups, so that was my belated log of last weekend. Am very happy tomorrow's the last workday of this week!!! Yay! Hopefully can get out of Singapore for this weekend. Me and 2 chumps thinking of going to Taman Negarah for a hike. Gonna to try my darnest to make it happen! :)
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Monday, April 10, 2006

Of distances

She couldn't bear to look him in the eye. But it's not possible to disregard him the whole hour when it's only the 3 of them.

From the corner of her eye, she saw him smile at her, there's no choice but to turn and acknowledge him with as good a smile as she could muster.

How is it that even when she tries to avoid having eye contact or talking to him, she's still inevitably conscious of his presence? Of where he is, what he's doing. Ah oui, she's more comfortable stealing glances at him when he's not aware. 'From a distance, I'm safe.' So she thinks. Ha.

She can't decide what's worse, not being able to see him or being in contact with him daily but having to pretend that she's ok, everything's all right.

Some say 'Absence makes the heart grow fonder.'

She thinks, for him, with regards to her, it'll be 'Out of sight, out of mind.' Sigh.
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Tu m'est tres sympathique.

He occupied her mind the whole day. The chorus of a song she heard the day before played in her tete relentlessly.

'Goodbye my lover,
Goodbye my friend,
You have been the one,
You have been the one for me.'

Maybe she's trying to reconcile to herself the fact that he's leaving. To bid farewell to his memories. Store them in a drawer, close it. Move on.

'Wouldn't it be easier if we stop seeing each other now than to wait till I leave? It's tearing me apart. I can't move on like this.' Lying on his bed, staring at the ceiling, hands on head, his expression slightly pained.

And she had told him the drawer analogy. 'You can do it. Once you get home. I know it for a fact. Sad... but true.'

'But the drawer pops out unbidden. The hinges are loose.'

She looked up the lyrics of the song.

'And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be.'

He said he'd call. She had tried not to wait for her phone to ring. Busied herself around the house. Several times, she glanced at her mobile, as if willing it to do something, don't just sit there silently!

Maybe he had already moved on.
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Friday, April 07, 2006

Helplessness...

takes the form of looking on as someone you care about agonise over problems, realising it is not within your abilities to do anything concrete to help alleviate their worries or pain and knowing that anything you say now (be it reassurances, encouragement, advice or opinion) will simply sound inadequate, so that when you open your mouth, attempting to break the silence, in a bid to engage him/her in a conversation, hoping there might be something you can do to take his/her mind off the difficulties, you crinch on the inside.

Do you stay beside him/her and just be there or do you walk away and give him/her the space he/she might need?

Difficult question?

Help.

I hope you are feeling better today.
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In need of retail therapy

It's finally Friday... This week has been a long, exhausting one. Loads of work, like heavy sediments carried by a river that rushes on with no end in sight.

Alors, I think I deserve to reward myself with something. Which calls for some shopping, tomorrow. :D Gerls (I don't want to be called a sexist, so, guys, if you don't mind walking till your legs feel like they're gonna fall off, then you are more than welcome too! ;p), join me?

A particular someone has been quite sweet this week, waited for me to go to the gym, waited for me after and even helped me with my triceps exercise yesterday. (after which when I commented it's the first time he's helped me at the gym, he said, 'Mmm, it feels much better giving than taking'. It's possibly quite rare for him to be on the giving end, especially with me.) So surprise surprise! Though one might wonder if it was only cos' one got him a birthday present that he liked. Hmm... O_o

Sometimes, God sends us little reminders of how He intervenes to help us. This morning, on my way to the animal facility, just as I stepped through one of the doors in the loading bay area, the magnetic piece of the door fell, at that VERY moment, with a resounding 'plunk', 2 inches away. Some workers who were nearby looked around to see what had just dropped. I turned my head, stared at the dense, heavy metal piece next to me, thinking to myself, if I had walked a couple of inches to the left, that would have been on my head! And how that would hurt!!! >_< Thank God for directing my steps!!! For the little miracles in life...

Looking forward to the end of the workday. ^_^

'I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
Cos' I'll never be with you.

There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.'

-- James Blunt, You're Beautiful
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006

As you open one after another, you wonder if she's the last one.

Les Poupees Russes (The Russian dolls) the sequel to L'Auberge Espagnole (The Spanish Apartment). I've been wanting to watch it since I saw the thriller in Paris last year. Finally caught it last Sat night. And am very very glad he didn't mind going along with me despite not having watched the first part! ^_^ So good it got him eager to find part I. :) It is by far the most enjoyable show I've watched this year. At the same time hilarious and insightful. Not an easy combination. :) It being French was big plus! Go watch!!!

Rumour has it that it's somebody's birthday today. :D Il a trente ans! Un peu vieux eh? ;p I hope he'll be surprised by what's in store for him today. On behalf of our colleagues, I bought a cake (very yummy CHOCOLATE cake, which obviously, is chosen cos' I like it! Hee), and a present (bike jersey) of which I blew my budget on (apparently I have expensive tastes! I saw that very one and everything else I looked at after just didn't seem to come up to standard, so I had no choice but to get the expensive one. >_<), thus had to make up the difference on my own. He won't know any of this but I do hope he appreciates the present!

I came up with a little plan for the surprise outside of the office. (The usual protocol for birthdays, so I've been told, is that we tell the 'star of the day' there's a meeting and go to the conference room. A bit boring hor?) So anyway, my original idea was to lure him out of the office then have everyone go to the little 'sky garden' on the top floor of our building before bringing him up. But our admin lady told me we'd have to book the place and it's not free. The last time I went up there to have a look with some colleagues it wasn't locked so I thought we could just use it. Alas, there goes my seemingly brillant plan. Sighz...
She said there's a small park nearby and we could go there so now I can only cross my fingers, pray and hope the weather stays fine to go outside.

He won't be reading this, mais comme meme, je lui souhaite beaucoup plus de bonheur dans le futur! :)
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