Thursday, August 25, 2005

Just passing by

Went out to a garden to read yesterday. It was a nice little one at the tip of a small 'island' in the middle of River Seine. Constantly looked up from my book to see the boats passing by laden with tourists, sparrows chirping, pecking food, lovely flowers, groups of people/couples sitting nearby.

The weather was a little on the cool side and it looked as if a fine film of clouds had decided to envelope Paris. There was not even a tiny slit where one could see blue. The sky was an endless white, rippling white. I wish I had my camera with me. (Not the first time I've thought that here. From now on, will bring my camera everywhere I go!) It's not everyday that I get to see a sky like that. There was a moody, slightly grieving quality about it.

After an hour of reading, I left the garden to take a walk outside and found many quaint alleys bustling with life; restaurants, cafes, some very expensive-looking shops, little art galleries, and of cos' lots of people. Roads I had never seen, never taken. Found them yesterday, from walking around blindly, aimlessly. ^_^ As I walked along, people-watching, I thought, strange, I don't feel like a tourist but neither do I feel like I belong/live here. Dans (So), what category do I fall into? In-between, I suppose? A passerby? hmm... *mulling over*

Have come to enjoy doing this on my own. Luckily, this time, no strange old man talked to me (the other time I went to the Jardin du Luxembourg - a very big and beautiful garden - alone to read, a man who looked to be in his forties approached and talked to me as I was walking along Boulevard St Michel). Though sadly, no cute young man approached either. Haha. :) There were some black males who shouted 'ni hao' and other stuff (rude-soundly words) to me in the little garden as I was leaving and I simply ignored them.

Will be going to the library later this evening. And then take a walk around and go *snap snap* with my camera. :) Am happy when I get to take photos. Hee!

Now gotta go weigh mice and make up the groups for tomorrow's injection. Till later!
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I miss you (to nobody in particular. well...)

Hello there,
the angel from my nightmare
the shadow in the background of the morgue
the unsuspecting victim, of darkness in the valley
we can live like Jack and Sally if we want
where you can always find me
we'll have Halloween on Christmas
and in the night we'll wish this never ends
we'll wish this never ends
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
this sick strange darkness
comes creeping on so haunting every time
and as I stared I counted
the webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

Blink182
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Aha! I can read Baby Blues online! ^_^

The Baby Blues website was blocked in my office com before but when I tried my luck today, it opened! I hope I can get to see it everyday now. :) Makes me laugh all the time! I like how Wanda (for those of you not familiar with them, she's the Mum) uses sarcasm with her husband, Darryl, and how Darryl is sometimes sweet (when he helps her with the housework and when he plays with the kids) and adorably stupid other times. :) If I ever (at this point, low probability) get married, I would want a husband like that. Hee. And if I do get married AND have kids (forementioned probability decreased further), I hope I'd be a good mum like Wanda.

I also found a link on a friend's blog to some other comics that I like (Zits, for example). Before today, I only read Foxtrot and Garfield, sometimes Calvin and Hobbes online.

My supervisor is occupied discussing stuff with boss, that explains my free time. heehee... Think if I have nothing else to do, I'd leave soon. Might go to a garden to read.

Am getting a feeling that my blog is slowly becoming a series of inconsequential, unimportant ramblings... Hints at my state of mind, no? Hah! No good at all...
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Ramble ramble

Loneliness slips through little cracks in life, cracks you didn't even know exist. When you are around people, when you are busy at work, when you bury yourself in novels, escaping to a make-believe world, when you are trying hard to convince yourself you are leading a fulfilling life...

The little wannabe, wish-I-could-write-well 'writer' in me is trying to prove its existence. :O) Bear with it, will ya?

Just had a very very short phone call with mum. Only got to say hi before my nephew insisted he wanted a part in the conversation too. I asked him if he knew who I was and as usual he called me 'ah San' (which is my sister), some other times he would call me 'Mamee'. hahaha... :) Last time I asked my mum if he remembers me and she said ya, he's just being mischevious, not calling me (correctly) on purpose. I love him! And I told him just that just now. Then he mumbled something I didn't hear and after he said 'no'! :'( I asked him for a flying kiss and he said 'dun wan'! Hahaha... I can't wait to play with him again! Soon, soon... and then I could kinda forsee myself, after 10 minutes (hmm... maybe a bit more, since I was away for a year), wishing I could get away... hahaha... Humans... Why can't we be satisfied with what we have?

My supervisor, being still in vacation mood/jet-lagged, is not very keen on working very hard/late today, so yay! I can slack a bit more... Hee. Am cracking my brains now about what I should do after work today. Should I just go straight home and laze? But it's a beautiful day... Should I go out on my own? hmm... but where?

This entry is so randomized (realise I'm just typing what I think as I go). No coherent train of thought. Ha.

Happy Birthday, Wenqin/Michael! (was comtemplating saying Happy 2_ but decided against it, in case you want to keep it a secret. ^_^ Well, be glad at least it still starts with 2! :p) Take care and have lotsa fun!
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Free.Free.Free.I don't know what to do with myself...

Wasn't at work yesterday cos' was down with a bad bout of recurring fever and headache. Started over the weekend and thus lost my weekend stuck at home. Am feeling ok now. Though am cold.cold.cold (even with my jacket on. And for people who know me well, they know I don't normally feel cold easily) right now. Right above my desk, there's a ventilator which is nice in the summer when it's hot.hot but not a very good thing to have in cold weather. It makes my office even colder than the rest of the surroundings.

My 2nd entry in one day... so free I don't know what else to do with myself. True, I could read some journal articles (of which I have many) but not really in the mood to do that right now (I kinda read a couple of lines and then turn back to the computer).

Tomorrow my supervisor will be back from his month of vacation (read: there goes my free time...). I already know I have tons of things scheduled to do tomorrow and thereafter, so don't be surprised by the lack of updates after. Slave-driver, he is... Haha... I always call him that cos' am never in lack of things to do when he's around and quite often have to work late. But in truth he's a good supervisor to work with. He's patient enough with me to explain things when I don't understand and when I am a little slow or make mistakes he doesn't really get pissed. Qualities essential when dealing with people like me. :)

Think I will get off earlier from work today to rest. And to compensate for tomorrow's (and more) busy day.
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Seasonal weather

Did I ever mention one of the things I really like about being in a temperate country is the weather? I like the fact that here, I get to wear different clothes for different seasons. And to put on a coat when I go out, I really like that. Well, in the beginning I was really not used to it, found it quite troublesome actually and sometimes forgetting my coat until I step out the door and am reminded by the cold frosty wind that I need a coat/jacket.

I never owned many long-sleeved shirts in Singapore, let alone coats/jackets. Before I had only a couple of windbreakers and that makes up all my cold weather wear. (considering I live in hot hot Singapore and have never ventured far enough to cold places, that's logical eh?) Now, I've amassed a few coats/jackets, a couple given to me before I came (a light sporty one for spring and whenever it's just cold but not cold enough for heavy coats and a heavy long jacket for winter), a couple I've bought (a denim one from London and a second-hand leather jacket that's well-worn but still nice that I bought at a garage sale in front of my apartment building). Stuff I won't get to wear anymore when I get home... sad...

I remember when I used to look at winter trench coats in shop windows in Singapore and wish I could get to wear them one day. Well, I got to wear one the last winter! Although it's a little big for me but it keeps me nice and warm. I've also tried on some jackets when I went shopping the last winter sale. Most of them looked really nice! Was really really tempted to get one then but thinking that I wouldn't have a chance to wear it after I get home, I didn't buy one.

When my sis and some friends were here, we went window shopping in Champs Elysees (Paris's equivalent of Orchard road but with many more big brand shops). I dragged them into Hugo Boss with me. I just wanted to go in to take a look since I've never been into one big brand shop here. There were cute guys manning the entrance and exit doors, where they open the doors for you to come in and go out... We felt funny going in... hee... Inside I tried on some ridiculously-priced jackets! Think 900+ euros!!! O_o And 500+ euros, 300+ euros... Heehee... It felt good trying them on!!! Even better when my sis and friends said I looked nice in them. Doesn't matter that I can't afford them, now or maybe ever (unless there comes one day when I have enough money I could burn or throw them in the streets).

Haha... How I have digressed! Back to the weather note, it's getting chilly around here. Leaves are showing signs of browning. Seems like autumn is making its entrance even though it's kinda early. It's still supposed to be summer. But well, the weather's been real odd this year. Wonder what other surprises it'll spring... Hopefully it'll snow before I leave. :)
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Friday, August 19, 2005

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways...

How does one find one's niche in life??? Is Science my calling? I wonder...

A very detestable, unkempt, disgusting, oh-I-am-so-high-&-mighty-&-smart-&-all (Pui!!!) China colleague/housemate said he thinks I'm not suited for research, better to go into business, with an unsubtle note of I-mean-to-say-you-are-too-stupid-to-do-research. Anyway, I don't care about what he thinks. He is known in the company for his arrogance, disrepect for others and a whole lot of other things so it's no surprise that everyone dislikes him.

Anyhow, enough about the Pest. He's not worth my blog space.

Why did I choose to do biology? Because I like it, no? For me, research induces love-hate feelings... I mean, I do like my work. Well, most of the time... When my supervisor takes the effort to teach me new things and explain various concepts and rationale to me. When experiments go well and we get good results, which, sad to say is quite rare... O_o
Experiments in my hands seem to have a 'funny' (not in the haha way) tendency to give disappointing results... In the beginning when I was first given charge of running the experiments on my own, I made stupid mistakes which screwed things up (it can be very expensive when experiments are screwed up - the cost of the animals for exanple). But following ones (am surprised boss actually dared to let me do follow-ups), I learnt and didn't make any stupid mistakes (I think). But results still don't look good. I feel really frustrated here. Maybe that's a hint for me there... I know no one said research is easy, especially in drug discovery. My supervisor once said one has to be very very persistent in this area.
Other times, it can be boring because of the routine work I do as a technician, inevitable, I know. But still...
The other problem is I know I will never be able to progress in this field without a PHD. And that would mean 5 more years of school, without much income. I'm not sure I can do that.

I love you.I love you not. *picking flower petals off*

As for business/marketing, I know nuts about it and thus am a little afraid of making the decision to go into it since I know after which it's not very likely that I can get into the research arena again. Out of touch, I would be then. I don't even know if I can make it in this competitive, dog-eat-dog (excuse me for the cliche but I don't know another word to describe it) domain. My former boss told me before I left Singapore that he sees the potential in me to make it in this industry (business/marketing) and although he insists that he is very experienced, I have serious doubts about it. ha.

Qu'est-ce que je peux faire?
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Thursday, August 18, 2005

Slacking...

After 2 days of working conscientiously, I could finally slack today.

About the tumours I mentioned in my previous post, I informed my boss about them and we went together to check them yesterday morning. I can't help but wince everytime I see them. He agreed with me that the tumours are humongous. But said the mice still appear healthy enough (that is, they still move around quite well and he said that movement is the best sign of life.) hence their 'quality of life' (the exact words he used) should still be ok. So we are going to leave the tumours and see how things go. Am not looking forward to measuring them next Mon!

I really should be job searching in my free time. I have tried to put it off because I really have no idea what I want to do after this. (One of my bosses recently asked me if I had found a job in Singapore or if I am looking and when I said not really, he asked if I had struck lottery. Humph! I am just lazy, can?)

The same question I had when I go this job offer hung around. Should I continue in R&D or should I go back to business/marketing? My former boss have kindly told me I could go back to my former position (business/marketing). He even called me on my mobile sometime in June to ask how I am. But I really don't know if he meant it (the job offer) or not. Guess that I'll only find out when I get back. I received an email last Friday from GSK that they've a vacancy for a 'scientist' in their new R&D Centre for Research in Cognitive & Neurodegenerative Disorders @ Biopolis. I was happy to receive the email, but as usual they prefer a 'real' (face-to-face) interview which I am not able to accomplish right now. I haven't got a reply from them since. Am quite sure the vacancy wouldn't wait for me till Nov with the many honours students out there.

The previous 'job opportunity' from ES cells ended with a polite group email (2 of my colleagues were interviewed too. They have since returned to Singapore. They didn't send any news, but I don't care either.) saying 'We remain interested in your candidacy and ask that you contact us as soon as you repatriate to Singapore. At present, it is difficult to offer a position sight-unseen...'

Anyway, other than being undecided about what I want to do, that's one of the other reasons why I'm not actively searching/applying for a job now. They all require physical presence in Singapore for interviews, which is understandable, in a way... (I mean, I did get this job through am application form, a resume and a couple of phone interviews... But maybe that's cos' the company's French, not Singaporean. Less stringent. Besides, we are not paid by them.)

Talking about the company here, I believe I have mentioned that I will miss working here when I go home. Am once again reminded of that. Think I would actually get work culture-shocked (if this term exists). During lunch with my French colleagues this afternoon, we noted how empty the canteen was. (Everyone's on summer vacation that seems to last forever! A few weeks at least.) In France, everyone's entitled to at least one month of vacation days per year. By law, mind you!!! (Plus a whole lot of other leave and stuff and only 35 working hours a week!) And in Singapore, we get what, 2 weeks??? Here I get 2.5 days per month that I work, which works out to be 6 weeks per year! From time to time, I do wonder, with their shorter working hours and long long vacation, how does the country progress?
The workers union here is so strong, they regularly have strikes, protests, hands out pamplets etc. Sometimes I wonder if one actually exists in Singapore. It is so silent. Well, not up to me to comment on politics.

Shesh, gotta go now, need to do some work in the lab before I leave today. Am crossing my fingers that it'll not be too busy tomorrow!
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Just had a long weekend. Yesterday was Assomption Day (don't ask me what it's about. All I know was it was a public holiday :p) Hence feeling a bit of 'Monday blues' on Tuesday. Had a lot of work to do today. The normal amount of work that I do together with my colleague, I had to do it alone cos' she's on vacation (*protests!* Everyone's on summer vacation! I want also!!!). So it feels like double the work. Almost didn't stop until just now. And even now I should be inputing data into Excel, not blogging...

A friend of mine works in the renovation business here and I helped him do some paint job over the long weekend. It was a little fun (I was actually looking forward to it in the beginning! haha... Oh my, what was I thinking??? O_o). But very very tiring... plus the fumes from the paint and the white spirit (they call it here what we call turpentine - spelling correct?) all in my nose... I have painted the outside of sheds and dining halls before when I went to Missouri for the summer camp but that was in the open so the fumes didn't seem so bad. Though I must say, the end product was nice to look at. heehee... My friend praised me for a job well done. I even got a nice top for it! Happy! (We were just browsing in the shops afterwards where I tried on some tops and he insisted on buying me something for helping him.) Well, now I understand how tiring his job is. Not easy definitely. And I also got to see how good he is at his work. Very nice stuff he could make out of an empty room! Maybe if I could afford it, and when I do (I hope) get my own place in the future, I could fly him over to help me renovate it! :)

And, on the note of work, don't think I've ever mentioned how sometimes, my work gives me a feeling of self-disgust. Have been a while since I felt like this. It hasn't been too bad ever since I stopped working on Arthritis. In the beginning, I would feel really bad when I see the rats/mice limping painfully or even completely unable to move because of their horribly swollen feet (bones dissolved) and when I had to do painful procedures like take blood from the rats by poking their eyes with glass pipettes and surgeries etc.
I have been working on Oncology for a while now and although I still have to kill mice and stuff, it's not as painful to work on. Until now, that is... I started 2 new experiments about 2 weeks back with new tumour cell lines (C6 & B16). One's a rat glioma and one's a mouse melanoma (with lotsa melanin). Yesterday I've found that both are very very aggressive. Just last week when I measured the tumours, they were small, expected, since it's just one week into the experiment. But yesterday, the 2nd measurement, I was completely grossed out!!! The tumours are 45 times bigger than last week!!! The mice look like they are carrying huge bombs on their sides (The cells were injected subcutaneously into their left side). I can't even begin to describe how big and ugly the tumours are on the poor little mice (they are nude mice by the way. We have to use nude mice cos' they don't have strong immune systems to overcome the cancers). The B16 tumours are a horrible black colour and are even bigger than the C6 ones. Plus they seem to cause some kind of haemorrhaging around the tumours. And the drugs we are using don't seem to have much effect on decreasing the size of the tumours.
Another experiment in the running is homing, where our drugs are tested for their abilities to stop/decrease breast cancer cells' (B02) propensity to metastasize to bone and we use a bioluminescence machine (that costs a whole whole lot!) to check for metastasis. Now we are checking for paralysis. The mice seem to move much slower than normal (they probably have bone met). I feel bad to have to inject them now.
P.S.:I hope this entry wouldn't put me in any legal liability regarding confidentiality of my work in the company... I mean, I didn't say anything confidential as one could easily find information about these stuff in journals and all, right?

A lot of times I have wondered, is this all worth it? Subjecting animals to procedures and diseases like these in the name of research? For the benefit of the human race??? So we could find some miracle cure-it-all drug? In my lifetime will I ever be part of a successful drug discovery??? Science is meant to answer questions right? Then why do I have some many questions that I don't seem to have answers to? The motives are doubtful especially in commercial pharmaceutical companies. They might be more justifiable in research institutes but there is a question of personal fame...

One time, while I was walking in the streets of Paris with a friend and my sister (when she was here), enjoying our Mac flurries, we passed by some booths where people were protesting against animal testing. We were handed pamplets and the friend had to 'helpfully' point out that my work involves animal testing. I ended up getting lectured about how bad it is. Hey, like I don't feel bad enough about it already!!!

I have many thoughts (more than second) about continuing in this line of work...
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Je dois travailler

Arghhh!!! Boss is back from vacation. Just had a long meeting this morning. Arrows flying everywhere and some directed at me... Like I don't have enough work already!?!? Thankfully they took one project out of my worklist, at least that's what I think they meant. But also added more...
My life is boring; work, back to the 4-walls (although my room is quite pretty. I like it. Just that it's quite lifeless) and pretty much nothing else... And to think I'm in Paris. I so should just go out alone and explore the city. Sometime. Before I go home. I wonder if I'll ever get used to this doing-everything-alone lifestyle. *pensive...*
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Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Just had a long long coffee break... ^_^

Am so going to miss working here after I go home... The French can be quite so relaxed when bosses are not around. heehee.

I just had the longest coffee break! :) Went for lunch with my French colleagues as usual and since it was a beautiful day -blue blue sky (I can't even begin to describe the blueness of this blue! Hardly a trace of clouds! Ciel and more ciel!), nice warm sunshine- one of the ladies, Marie Helene, suggested we take coffee in the little garden just behind our labs which I didn't even know existed! It's a nice, almost-hidden-from-view little corner with a couple of benches and trees all around.

They talked, I listened (and tried to understand), as always. My French is improving after working closer with them and lunching with them. :) They are very patient with me if I ask them what is this word or that phrase or just whatever they are talking about. And they try to find their words in English (not easy for them a lot of times) to explain. Tres tres gentil (very very nice) of them!

In Spring, outside our building, there were trees laden with beautiful apple blossoms which have become apples now. The branches are burdened with little apples. Petit red green apples litter the area around those trees. Marie Helene asked a male colleague of ours, Eric, who very often talks about recipes and cooking during lunch (he loves to cook) if he knows how to make a tarte aux pommes/ gateau de pommes. I wasn't sure what he replied. But I thought, since they are so very nice to me, I could make one for the lab! :) I had made one earlier for a friend's birthday (as there's a nice big oven in my apartment here) and it was quite successful, I think, (well, they did say it tasted good.) albeit the not-so-nice exterior. hee. But I'm sure it will be better la deuxieme fois.

Normally, the apples would be ripe only in September but cos' there are so many fallen apples, Marie Helene said we could check if they are good yet. We picked a few of the fallen ones and tried one. I thought it was ok but she thought it was not good yet. So we wait. I wanna bake! :)

I mentioned to them that today's Singapore's National Day and they joked that we could close the labs and have the rest of the day off on account of that. :p

As you might have noticed, I am not very motivated to work today (not that much work that I've been asked to do -boss not back from vacation yet-, though if I had been really motivated to work, I could find quite a lot of stuff to do).

Can actually write 2 posts in 1 day! Incroyable! ;p
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Bonne Fete Nationale, Singapour!

Happy National Day people!

And a very Happy Birthday to Zan! A great gal with the same birthday as our nation! :) May all your wishes (shopping trip, haircut & colour etc...) come true!!! ^_^ I miss ya, gerl! Looking foward to seeing you! Gimme an idea of what to get ya from Paris... Other than the horribly cher (expensive) branded stuff... hee.

*Raising invisible wine glass*
To a harmonious, united (I hope, regardless of race, language or religion...), clean, green and prosperous Singapore toujours!

I love Singapore!!! National Day always makes me feel patriotic. heehee... Have no idea what this year's national day song (that I've heard people saying is lame) sounds like. Maybe I should try to google for a website where I might be able to hear it.

Enjoy the holiday, people! (And I'm working... Bleahh...) Watch the parade for me! :)
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Friday, August 05, 2005

Someone said something nice to me yesterday and I was slow enough not to understand it then and I didn't even thank the person. ha. I was at a supermarche (Ed) near Rue de Rivoli yesterday and the cashier said (after the usual Bonjour), 'Tu es jolie' (You are pretty). I didn't even realise he was talking to me, thought either I didn't understand correctly or that he was talking to my friend. Though come to think of it, my friend is a guy, the cashier is a guy, so.... erhm... well, he could have been gay for all I know. O_o heehee... So I didn't say anything, just smiled. Then the cashier asked my friend, 'Vous etes ensemble?' (You are together?) and my friend said oui. So possibly he didn't even notice my guy friend beside me. He then asked 'Vous venez d'ou?' (You come from where?) And when my friend said 'Pardon?', he thought we didn't understand. I think my friend just didn't hear him. An old man in line behind us said 'Marseille' (a nice city in the South of France) and we laughed. The cashier asked if we speak English and repeated his question in English. My friend answered, 'Romanie' and at that, our purchases were paid for and we said, 'Au revoir' to the cashier guy (who looked pretty good himself. hee. I can't tell what race he is, his skin colour is kinda a cafe au lait -coffee with milk- colour.) and we left. I only realised after talking to my friend that I was paid a compliment. And I probably looked -I don't understand a word of French- stupid back there. Plus I felt I was impolite, didn't say thank you. But well, it was not really my fault if I didn't know at whom his compliment was directed. haha. Anywayz, I kinda floated for a bit. ^_^ My friend had to pull me firmly to the ground after. hahaha...

After we went to the train station, Chatelet, to take a train to somewhere else and there was a commotion at the platform where we were. Turned out that there was a mysterious-looking (with no owner) silver suitcase that was left near the seats. The security were trying to clear the area of people and put red & white striped tape to cordon off the area. Our train arrived and we left on it so I didn't know what happened next. Though we thought it most probably was a stupid practical joke since the Al-Qaeda would probably not be so naive as to leave a silver suitcase in a train station and then have the police come before it (the bomb) goes off. There are no reports today on the news about it so I figured that nothing happened, which is good news.

After the attacks on London, Paris has started to be more alert to things like that, with announcements in metro and train stations to tell people to report mysterious-looking objects (and in English too! How amazing is that!!! ;p). It's good they are on their toes, since Paris seems to be a very plausible target too.

'World Peace' seems so very very far away and impossible to achieve...
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Thursday, August 04, 2005

Cute cards...

Taken off a card sis and I saw in a cute little shop in London:

A Fragment of a Dream

And in my chocolate kingdom they brought me great mountains of chocolate and thereof did I eat.
And it did not make me feel ill or ashamed, neither did it put weight on my thighs.
For the chocolate was health-giving and nourishing, and the more I ate, the more beautiful I became.

Ahh... The perfect dream! :)

From another card:

We can all fly as high as the dreams we dare to live.
Unless we are a chicken.

O_o Haha...
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Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Under the weather...

Feeling a little under the weather these days, but can't pinpoint exactly the reason. Probably a little of everything. Maybe it's just time to go home to roost.

Talked to a friend online yesterday whom I hafn't seen in quite a long time (maybe a year) and I was surprised when he kept asking me if I was ok, said I sounded different, all sentimental and emotional, which was unlike me (Hey!!!). But I thought I was just talking normally?!? (Being sarcastic, as usual. But perhaps not enuff... O_o) Then he was all sweet and stuff (which was soooo unlike him... usually he's mean! hee!), saying I could always call him if I needed to speak to someone and that I should cheer up cos' he preferred the cheerful me... Wonder if he meant it?...

Thought about my girlfren who promised she'd bake a cake with me when I get home. I'm holding U to that, Zan! :)

Another girlfren who gave me her new mobile number and asked me to call her when I get home.

Some unexpected messages from people whom I don't expect to remember that I exist.

An email from a close fren back home.

An email from sis.

The stuff that reminds me there are people who care. Thanks people! ^_^

On the way home yesterday, I decided I should start jogging cos' it'll help me feel better (and healthier, of cos') like exercise always does. But as usual, I told myself I'd start tomorrow... Heehee... will definitely try (keyword: TRY. haha.) to start today! Need some girl support here!!! Anyone?!?! ^_^
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